Podcast Episode 7: Ryan and Gabby Bonnette Testimony – Pt. 1

• How they met each other and how their courtship process was before marriage. (Good advice for young people at this stage).

• Sis Gabby’s battle with depression and repeated suicide attempts as a teenager and how God delivered her from these.

• Bro. Ryan’s battle with depression in his later teen years and how God delivered him from it.

• How God healed their youngest daughter Ivah at birth when the doctors were not giving them much hope of their daughter surviving.

• How the role of putting God first in their family life played a great part in their daughter’s miraculous healing and what we can learn from that.

• How they go about having devotions with their 4 daughters and the key to making sure this is consistent.

• The necessity of having alone time with God daily and what they do to make sure they pray and read the Word of God as a couple.

Episode Transcript:

Luis Urrego: [00:00:00] [00:00:00] Welcome to the Ten Thousand Worlds podcast my name is Luis Urrego and it’s certainly a pleasure to have you here listening with us today on the another episode and I thank you each and every one of you for taking the time to tune in and to listen and most and foremost

[00:00:17] I thank our Lord Jesus Christ for giving us the opportunity to be able to do another episode and to share with each and every one of you this is episode seven of the ten thousand worlds podcast and on this episode we want to go ahead and introduce brother Ryan and sister Gabby Bonnette and they are a couple that attend the church that I attend in Lula Georgia Spoken Word Church, and they have been a very

[00:00:52] very inspiring couple. And on this testimony. We’re going to hear [00:01:00] this is the first part of the testimony. I sat down with them and we had an over an hour and a half interview with them speaking about how they came to the Lord and how they met each other. As well as we discussed very importantly both of them shared the the fact that

[00:01:23] God saved them both from depression, they both had depression in their lives and their younger years and how God miraculously saved them and took that away from them. We also discuss and they share their testimony on how the Lord spared their younger child. They have four daughters and the youngest daughter

[00:01:47] Ivah how God spared her from certain death when she was born and sister Gabby and brother Ryan going to details exactly how that happened as well as [00:02:00] what what they learned through that experience. And last but not least I ask them questions regarding how they the way they raise their children and in the in a Godly in, a Godly way and how they structure their devotional time with them how they instruct them as the Bible says train up a child in the way

[00:02:23] they should go in and when they get older they should not depart. This is something that they have instilled in them since they were little little girls and they take very seriously because in their in their minds and they and you can you can you can see this that this resonates throughout the whole interview and in their life from the time before they even met each other to the time now at this current time is that is,

[00:02:49] is the main thing is “Seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you”. So we speak about how they they go [00:03:00] about doing devotionals with them and what exactly they do as well as with each other and their own personal prayer time with the Lord and so you don’t want to miss this.

[00:03:09] I believe that you’re going to get a lot of practical information from this interview for for not just us older older ones, but also for teenagers young people children alike. And so I hope that you thoroughly enjoy this, this episode and this is part one of this interview and then we will be releasing part 2 in just a few days.

[00:03:36] So I hope you enjoy may God bless you and I will come back to you with my with my final thoughts for this episode. May God bless you.

[00:03:44] Welcome to the Ten Thousand Worlds Podcast. My name is Luis Urrego and we have here with me right now is brother Ryan and sister Gabby Bonnette. We’re here in Gainesville, Georgia or near Gainesville, Georgia [00:04:00] brother Ryan and sister Gabby

[00:04:01] they are one of their couple family that attend our church Spoken Word Church there in Lula Georgia. And so if you want to if you want to just greet the listeners bro. Ryan and Sister Gabby.

[00:04:12] Ryan Bonnette: [00:04:12] God bless you. all.

[00:04:14] Gabby Bonnette: [00:04:14] God bless you all.

[00:04:16] Luis Urrego: [00:04:16] Praise the Lord. So if you both could just share maybe we could start with you brother Ryan how the Lord,

[00:04:24] how the Lord started dealing with you how you came to the Lord and just take it from there? Okay.

[00:04:30] Ryan Bonnette: [00:04:30] Well as far back as I can remember when I was a young man, my grandmother would get down and read the Bible and pray with me and my sister and that was the earliest dealings. I can remember of the Lord deal with me and my life and impressing in my young mind how important the Bible reading and prayer is and years ahead around the age of 12,

[00:04:51] I became under very great realization that I was a sinner in need of Salvation at the time. I was Baptist. I was born and [00:05:00] raised Baptist and so in the Baptist Church in Oakwood there was a Baptist church that we went to and I gave my heart to the Lord there and came to the state of justification and it would be many years later to allow would come to the realization of sanctification and the baptism of the Holy Spirit after coming into the message.

[00:05:20] So I had a great desire for the Lord at age 15. I started reading the Bible and praying every day. And I decided that was a very necessary element of the Christian life. And that’s been one of the greatest blessings to me in my life. Well sometime after that a lot of the things in my life that I knew should not be there a lot of wrong things.

[00:05:42] I was doing the music. I was listening to another other things. I was taking part of sinful things in private that. I knew should not be part of a Christian life started to go out. So I guess you could sell starting into an early sort of stage of sanctification, but not really knowing what sanctification was it [00:06:00] was just the washing of the Water by the Word because I was reading the Bible every day and I’m praying and seeking God and then later on I met a young lady that attends our church,

[00:06:11] currently at Spoken Word Church is Amy Stewart the brother and the sister the wife of brother Jeffrey Stewart, she and I met in high school and started dating and it was through her parents sister Gwenn and brother Joe that I learned about the Message of the Hour. Sister Gwenn told me about brother Branham and the and gave me a Church Age book and I began reading a little and the Lord begin dealing with me.

[00:06:33] Luis Urrego: [00:06:33] So bro. Ryan, at this time you were still in the Baptist church?

[00:06:37] Ryan Bonnette: [00:06:37] Still in the Baptist. Yeah, and I was at this time about 16 years old and right around or 17 right around that time a few months later I started visiting at Spoken Word Church and the Lord began dealing with me further and eventually I left the Baptist church and stayed at bro. Dale’s and then starting sanctification. And during [00:07:00] this time

[00:07:00] I life i was also going through a great battle with depression and that’s what we want to try to make as one of the parts of this one of the focuses of this talk is about our depression overcoming depression.

[00:07:11] Luis Urrego: [00:07:11] Right, so so before we get to that bro. Ryan, I just want to get the background of your wife sister Gabby and and then after that we’ll talk briefly about how you are you both met and then we’ll get to the depression part.

[00:07:24] So sister Gabby if you want to tell us how you came to the Lord.

[00:07:30] Gabby Bonnette: [00:07:30] I had a real rough childhood growing up. About the age of 10 I was put in foster care because of that roughness. Within the foster care homes that I lived in it was about 5 or more that I was living in different times just moved around each one had a different religion.

[00:07:52] So I got to experience pretty much every denomination that was out there other than Catholic. [00:08:00] By the time I was 16 i met an adoptive family who at the time I didn’t know believed in the message.  I moved in with them was adopted after my 17th birthday.  And that’s when they really started beginning to witness to me and I fought it because I’ve plain out told them

[00:08:26] they tried to get me to listen to some services on the internet. I told them I was like what makes your religion different from all the others.

[00:08:36] Luis Urrego: [00:08:36] So you asked them this?

[00:08:37] Okay

[00:08:38] Gabby Bonnette: [00:08:38] Point Blank. I asked them what makes yours any different from all the others. You just going to tell me I need God that the other ones weren’t true.

[00:08:47] So I fought it because what else?  Honestly, what else was I supposed to do with the knowledge of all the other denominations and stuff? Where am I came from? [00:09:00] But I didn’t just leave it there. I said if you think you’re right and you think I’m wrong.  Pray for me.  So they did and I eventually gave my heart to the Lord after I had a big fight with My adoptive dad.

[00:09:18] Hmm. I got an argument with him over the word because I still wasn’t being fully convinced so that night I was sent to my room and I just. Broke down and cried and I said Lord if this is true.  Change me. I just save me change me. So.  That’s what the next day. I was putting on my usual pants and all that kind of stuff, but I was convicted right off the bat.

[00:09:48] I was convicted for wearing pants. Hmm. So I go. My clothes start to change first and foremost, but I was still.  touching up with the [00:10:00] makeup. I wasn’t heavy and makeup but I store still wore it but it was later on that that all that went away after I really started getting into

[00:10:11] this is to Gabby.

[00:10:11] Let me ask you this real quick. So your foster parent army or your adoptive parents. They were not forcing those things on you at all over. They

[00:10:22] never did. That was our first question before we even got adopted was are you going to force us to wear skirts all the time and get rid of our makeup and stuff like that and they said no just ask that you just wear them to church.

[00:10:38] Wow. They just kept praying for us and believing in living the life before us and overtime. Came to pass this very

[00:10:46] Luis Urrego: [00:10:46] interesting because it’s a very interesting approach as opposed to legalism, you know, so so go

[00:10:57] Gabby Bonnette: [00:10:57] ahead.  it [00:11:00] was. Pretty much that’s it. So

[00:11:02] Luis Urrego: [00:11:02] you were convicted at and I was around 16 years old.

[00:11:05] Yeah convicted and it was after that word had been sown for a while. Then it finally started taking hold.

[00:11:14] Gabby Bonnette: [00:11:14] Yeah, it wasn’t an overnight process. I mean the skirts was but everything else was just throughout several months because there’s still things that I still didn’t fully understand and fully see.

[00:11:29] So that was a long

[00:11:30] Luis Urrego: [00:11:30] process. So it wasn’t it wasn’t necessarily this the part that the skirt was is that you had more of a desire to be more modest. So again that goes back to where your where your mom and dad kind of train train you, you know throughout the time so that’s wonderful. So so time goes by you you graduated from high school.

[00:11:55] I’m assuming

[00:11:57] Gabby Bonnette: [00:11:57] yeah early for.

[00:12:00] [00:12:00] Ryan Bonnette: [00:12:00] Okay, okay.

[00:12:00] Luis Urrego: [00:12:00] Okay, so this and we’re coming into a good part now, so if you all can just share how you met how you both met and we’ll just go from there.

[00:12:12] Ryan Bonnette: [00:12:12] Well, it was at a youth camp Gabby’s Pastor brother Luther Dishman and Kentucky had hosted a youth camp. The only ones from our church that I heard of it.

[00:12:22] I guess was me and Joyce and hope Fountain the three of us car pulled up there and. Because we had mutual friends at the church. I didn’t know anything about Gabby ironically a month earlier at the Alabama count. The last Alabama can’t they had which was in 2006 Gabby saw me stand up share my testimony about overcoming depression.

[00:12:43] God moved on her through me to go up there and share her testimony. She was one of the last ones to testify today. Looks very contrary to her nature because she’s so backwards, but she got up there and overcame that fear and shared in front of hundreds of people. I guess. Well, she prayed and I said [00:13:00] Lord, I think it was something like that.

[00:13:01] She had prayed and asked the Lord to let me come talk to her because she couldn’t somehow get around to come and talk to me. She’s a very backward and shy I never did at the Alabama Camp. It was one month later here. We are 300 miles apart and we go our separate ways from Alabama. Her to Kentucky and made a Georgia one month later.

[00:13:19] I wound up coming up there to her pastors Youth Camp that her church hosted and it was on a Saturday afternoon there at the camp the back side of the camp. There was a little ball fields and people are playing balls and young people I turn around. I saw Gabby sitting by yourself. It’s always bothered me to see any young person left out at a youth camp or school or anything.

[00:13:41] I’ve always hated to see somebody left out. So I went over there. Going over there to hook up and get a phone number. Just going over there to say hello. Would you be interested in coming over here and fellowshipping with us? And she wouldn’t she was reluctant. She was sitting there drawing her doing some sketching.

[00:13:58] She’s an artist so she was doing whatever [00:14:00] little sketches. So I said well kind of look through your drawings and she said well, yeah sure. And so I found one that was really. Really nice looking and I said I was wondering if maybe I can get a copy of this sometime this weekend for you late. That was our first meeting and we went our separate ways and as I walked away.

[00:14:16] I had a similar experience that you testified about having a little race with Sister Christina from first meeting something spoke to me as something spoke to you about. This could be your wife Simon spoke to me and said you need to get to know that girl better and that’s all it said it but it struck me like a bullet.

[00:14:32] I mean I came in like from outside and into my brain and it just hit me hard I was. I need to get to know her better. So I’m too shy to grasp for a girl’s phone number. I was always real backward and shower room girls in school and so forth and she’s too shy to come. Give me her phone number long story short by the end of the weekend should remember that I had asked for a copy of my drawing so she gave me the original drawing or no.

[00:14:56] She said let me give you my address and or your address list, [00:15:00] what addresses and I’ll mail it to you. Well I said, well, how about I also I get your phone number. She wouldn’t even come ask me though. She asked me through her sister try to of her sisters were there so she asked me through them.

[00:15:12] That’s how I’m getting each other’s information. Right? And then later on we started getting to contact and I started visiting Kentucky. We got engaged in March 2007 in married in November 2007. So

[00:15:25] Luis Urrego: [00:15:25] wow, so. So here’s brother Ryan and he says that he was kind of backward and shy and as far as you know around other girls, and he’s coming to Sister Gabby and just Gabby’s back if the listeners would know Sister Gabby.

[00:15:43] She she’s very quiet. But but but at the same time when she when she speaks she says really good things. So that’s the reason why I’m really. That wanted to get this testimony from her. But so that was in [00:16:00] 2007 and I let me ask you your age now brother. Ron insist you go. I’ll be

[00:16:04] Ryan Bonnette: [00:16:04] on 34 now.

[00:16:06] Luis Urrego: [00:16:06] She’s 30.

[00:16:06] Okay. All right. So and now they are they have four children. And their oldest one is 11 years old all

[00:16:15] Ryan Bonnette: [00:16:15] yeah.

[00:16:16] Luis Urrego: [00:16:16] Also, I’ve almost 11 all of them girls. So I’m feeling for brother Ron but you know ways God God gave him all girls because he knew that he can handle him and so well praise the Lord Brother Ron and so so let’s get to.

[00:16:35] So let’s talk about maybe we can start with sister Gabby first because that sister Gabby you you battle with depression and suicide suicide and things like that. Correct when you were younger, so can you talk

[00:16:47] Ryan Bonnette: [00:16:47] about that? 

[00:16:50] Gabby Bonnette: [00:16:50] All right.  the first signs of depression for me was.  a real abusive man came into my [00:17:00] biological mom’s life.

[00:17:02] My sister my older sister biological older sister had brought home a math project where you draw picture using a graph and I told her when you color it put tears in its eyes.  I didn’t know at the time what that man or anything like that, but there was abuse going on in the home. So that was my first signs of depression it.

[00:17:29] Gradually start growing throughout the years because of all the other stuff going on and it hit its climax right at about the age of 14 to.  15:16 right around there

[00:17:46] Luis Urrego: [00:17:46] before you got adopted. 

[00:17:50] Gabby Bonnette: [00:17:50] It was actually a couple of years before I got adopted. So right about 14 15. I had gotten so [00:18:00] depressed.  that I.

[00:18:03] couldn’t figure a way out

[00:18:06] Ryan Bonnette: [00:18:06] my.  

[00:18:08] Gabby Bonnette: [00:18:08] Sister was separated from me. My little sister was separate from me. She was abusive as well.

[00:18:17] We kind of grew apart couldn’t get along it whatsoever my foster. Family at the time. They are biological key biological kids.  Grown in their 30s all that could not stand for me to say my home and that really pushed me over the limits. But at the said that same time I found out my biological parents rights were being terminated.

[00:18:47] And I just felt all alone in the world. I felt like my foster parents didn’t really care for me because their biological kids didn’t like me.  so.  [00:19:00] I figured best way out is just slit my wrists. So for several attempts, I tried and I tried and I tried didn’t get real deep V in.  One night the last time I was at my foster home.

[00:19:16] I had cut my wrist with a razor it was deep.  And I would have got the vein if my skin had not folded over itself.  Wow, I couldn’t stop the bleeding. I had to be taken to the hospital to have them tightly bandage it and they said it wasn’t serious enough to be put on the 5th floor, but I didn’t need to go to a lockdown facility.

[00:19:43] So I was locked up in a mental institution for a while.  And then was put into a different behavioral foster care system after I got out. I was still having issues with depression.  [00:20:00] Because I still felt all along in the world.  Like I was unwanted unloved so sorry

[00:20:10] Ryan Bonnette: [00:20:10] Sokka.

[00:20:11] Luis Urrego: [00:20:11] All right.

[00:20:15] Gabby Bonnette: [00:20:15] yeah, what cut myself just to relieve all the motion and pressure and I would try to hide it cut my legs my.  arms and places where nobody could see.  but then I thought there was a. Some hope because my foster parents I was living with wanted to.  so they said adopt me and I figured I’d only getting the home a forever home.

[00:20:48] Yeah, but it turned out that they only wanted to.  keep my now adoptive family from adopting me. We [00:21:00] started this thing in Kentucky called the snap program. And what that is is a program that allows.  adoptive.  couples meet foster kids who were up for adoption.

[00:21:14] Luis Urrego: [00:21:14] So this was like a government program

[00:21:16] Gabby Bonnette: [00:21:16] something.

[00:21:17] Yeah, and it was mostly for.  teenagers because we were The Unwanted group. Nobody wants teenagers.  So even some Foster families don’t even want teenagers. Because I think there’s no hope for us.  So we went to one of the picnics that was hosted by this program and it was after that picnic that I was told that we were supposed to meet with My adoptive family.

[00:21:52] They never showed up. But at the time I didn’t know the reason I later found out that it was because of a custody thing [00:22:00] with one of the kids in their home. But we.  we got back and they said well, we’re going to actually going to go through the process of adopting you.  They get so far in and decide.

[00:22:14] No, we’re actually not going to adopt you because we can’t take your sister because she’s too out of control. They kind of blamed it on my little sister with all her behavior issues that that’s the reason why they weren’t going to adopt. Then they tell me we’re going to do a permanent placement.

[00:22:35] Well that never came to pass for some odd reason, but we go to yet another.  Picnic for the snap program and it just so happened the adoptive family was there. I didn’t know who they were until later on. We kind of asked our social worker. Was this the family [00:23:00] last year that wanted us. She said yes.

[00:23:03] But they were actually there to see a little boy. Wow, they went to get this picture of a little boy. We’re sitting in a tent eating our lunch. The little boy was on the other side of the tent behind us. They went they almost had their back turned towards us. That’s how. Far off he was and they held up the camera to take a picture while when they developed a picture.

[00:23:26] It was a me and my sister. Wow, so they just knew right away that we were meant to be

[00:23:32] Luis Urrego: [00:23:32] so they went to take a picture of what a what again. I’m little boy

[00:23:36] Gabby Bonnette: [00:23:36] a little boy that was on the other side of the

[00:23:38] Luis Urrego: [00:23:38] tent and the the little boy not show up in the picture at all.

[00:23:41] Gabby Bonnette: [00:23:41] No, oh my

[00:23:44] Luis Urrego: [00:23:44] so talk about you know, that was good.

[00:23:49] Predestination

[00:23:51] Gabby Bonnette: [00:23:51] we started visits like the following month or two. Mmm in August of that same year. And then by November we were [00:24:00] adopted me my sister and another group of kids that were in the home. We’re all adopted on the same day and they said it was a fastest option ever

[00:24:13] Ryan Bonnette: [00:24:13] and it was the story about your

[00:24:15] Gabby Bonnette: [00:24:15] dad.

[00:24:15] It was right after my. 17th birthday, but right before that I was starting to have real not really a relapse, but just a relapse in the cutting it started coming back to me because my sister was acting out again and I thought.  here goes my forever home again. She was going to ruin it for me and I was still battling with this depression of being alone unwanted and life.

[00:24:44] Just going down the drain so. After I had gotten saved and things started changing for me, it was one night at church.  Our pastor had told us to just grab [00:25:00] somebody’s hand next to you and let’s all bow our heads and pray at that time. I had grabbed my dad. My now dad’s hand and we were praying and at the exact same time for both of us.

[00:25:15] A voice came to us and said to my dad you’re holding your daughter’s hand. It’s all going to work out.  And then for me at that exact moment, it says don’t worry. You’re holding your dad’s hand.  And it just kind of sealed in him and even after the adoption and I even after that I still struggled because it still was not.

[00:25:43] Settled within me. Yeah that somebody actually wanted me

[00:25:49] Luis Urrego: [00:25:49] right the saying of you’re holding what you heard the holding of your dad’s hand. He was later on you realize your [00:26:00] heavenly father’s hand that is that is that what is that what it came?

[00:26:04] Gabby Bonnette: [00:26:04] What both are you because I was physically holding my dad’s hand in everything wasn’t finalized yet.

[00:26:10] And so it kind of sealed it in then.  It was I was being taken care of and that’s kind of what helped me get over. The Depression was just knowing that first and foremost that God was watching over me because after I got saved I really started thinking about it. Hmm. Why didn’t I die when I slit my wrists?

[00:26:31] Yeah. Why am I here? You know up to that point. Why was I there what?  What was the big deal so I started thinking about it and thinking about it and one night. I decided just take like a card not like something paper-thin or anything like that. Just something thick like a credit card that couldn’t do any damage and just kind of see if my skin would just [00:27:00] fold over.

[00:27:00] Again, see exactly what had happened and it wasn’t no matter what I did it would not do it. And I even took the razor out of a razor blade like a shaving razor and just use that to see if it would kind of fold over not the razor but the plastic and it still wouldn’t fold over. But it was the same type of device that I used when I actually tried to slit my wrist with a razor and it wouldn’t fold over and that just kind of clicked with me that God was watching over me to bring me to my forever home.

[00:27:39] Then he was first and foremost with me the whole time and if nobody else cared for me, he

[00:27:46] Luis Urrego: [00:27:46] did. Yes, and that

[00:27:47] Gabby Bonnette: [00:27:47] kind of helped me get over. You know plant people in so my dad and my mom would both say we’re not giving up on you [00:28:00] your this is your forever home. You can go get married you can leave us but you can always come back if you turn 18 and you leave you can always come back because this is your home.

[00:28:11] They told me that for months and months and months, but it wasn’t till I realize I realized that it was God for. First off, you know the first one that cared for me that I started accepting it and then it just just brush and just gradually started leaving. I’m stopped cutting myself.  and I.

[00:28:36] Wouldn’t feel guilty when I laughed when I was happy. I’ve never felt guilty and it was just a sense of security. Hmm. It just gradually left.

[00:28:46] Luis Urrego: [00:28:46] So you were opening up more to people now.

[00:28:49] Gabby Bonnette: [00:28:49] Yeah,

[00:28:50] Luis Urrego: [00:28:50] he’s like that man now, Number The Ronettes at this time. Also you were battling. I mean obviously before [00:29:00] you met her but you were battling with depression as well.

[00:29:02] Ryan Bonnette: [00:29:02] Yeah, ironically about the same time in our life that we were 300 miles apart in it know each other. I was kind of bring us to the same. Same path together in life and both Balan depression about the same time. Mine was had a different trigger, but I called trigger because different people have different triggers different causes of depression.

[00:29:24] And first I want to say it just to make sure we’re on the same page of what depression is is an oppressive spirit. And now people can diagnose. It may be in the medical field maybe even prescribe medicine a psychiatrist and they say it’s a chemical imbalance but it’s route. It’s a an oppressive spirit and it’s very prevalent in our day and especially the young people so.

[00:29:48] A lot of lies the devil would tell me is like for one that you’re not a Christian because you can’t have depression and be a Christian or be born again. So for that I wouldn’t tell me people I kept it bottled up because I didn’t [00:30:00] want to didn’t want to let it known because I didn’t want to people to think I wasn’t a Christian but that’s a lie Christians have great battles and that just means you’re just a lot of times.

[00:30:11] I mean you’re on the right path, right, but my trigger was primarily relationships. I wanted a girlfriend ever since I was in. Elementary School, I wanted a girlfriend ever had a girlfriend. I was half way through high school and that’s what I miss is for Amy and learned about the message to her family while I was depressed up until that time then for the time we were together.

[00:30:29] I was happy. Well, then when we separated then I went rock bottom and that was the hardest depression and for the next couple of years. I was suicidal to the point that I was having thoughts of suicide. Yeah, not even go up on high places and just look down like on our parents back deck all together about three or four stories down and look and say well, who would I hurt emotionally mom and dad of course, but really no one else really cares for me.

[00:30:55] It seemed like and I would think well how bad would hurt me physically. How [00:31:00] long would I live after falling those terrible top of suicidal thoughts and I never follow through with anything but. It was just a constant prevalent thought of my mind not a day every waking moment. I was thinking about it and what the actual depression does to people for those who maybe don’t know if they have it.

[00:31:17] It makes you very demotivated. You don’t want to get up in the morning. You don’t want to go to bed at night and you don’t want to go to school. You don’t want to go to work. You don’t do anything life is gray life is had no purpose. No hope no meaning no point well, and that’s what that was my experience of depression.

[00:31:35] And coming up to the end of it.

[00:31:37] Luis Urrego: [00:31:37] Let me ask you this for a quick brother on the did your family know that you had

[00:31:42] Ryan Bonnette: [00:31:42] mom knew we were surprised she sent me to a psychiatrist for a couple of months. I did no good whatsoever. I wouldn’t try to deter young person or anybody from seeing the psychiatrist or get my medicine or anything could do to suppress it.

[00:31:55] But the older occurs through Christ, that’s the only way to get over depression.

[00:31:58] Luis Urrego: [00:31:58] Absolutely and [00:32:00] yeah. Sister Gabby did your family know that you were battling with depression when they adopted you that you had suicidal thoughts and things like that.

[00:32:11] Gabby Bonnette: [00:32:11] They knew I was suicidal because they had all my records and I even think I was on medication when I came to the home and they’re the ones that got me off of.

[00:32:22] Okay, they said that there was no sense in doing that. They explained they tried their best to explain to me what it was and stuff but they didn’t see that it was helping me. Hmm and I agree. It wasn’t because I was on the medication when I tried to hurt myself.

[00:32:36] Luis Urrego: [00:32:36] Wow. Okay. All right, because I just wanted to know how involved where your family’s in that in that in that issue that you guys were having because I know that depression.

[00:32:49] Depression one of the things that it makes you want to do is recluse yourself and and that’s being that it is a spirit. You [00:33:00] doesn’t it prevents you from reaching out to pick people that could help you they could possibly help you because you’re here in this own world and this little world yourself and in your kind of babying that and you’re talking to your and it’s just Satan when you don’t want to go because.

[00:33:18] There’s Deliverance out. There may be through a preacher or through somebody who has the Holy Ghost, you know, so so that’s why I wanted to know how your family was involved in it. So but around so so around. When was the time that you started seeing that it got to the peak of David and

[00:33:39] Ryan Bonnette: [00:33:39] far of my age?

[00:33:40] I was had been in the message already for a little while when I mean I broke up its it plummeted. That was the worst of it and that was around 17 going into 18 all that lasted all together about two years at the hardest part of it. Hmm from the time. It’s showed up at 14. It was real manner then up [00:34:00] until up until our breakup and then it was really bad for the last couple years all together six years, but the last two were the worst last two years of it.

[00:34:08] Yeah, and mine went away very suddenly. But it was a long hard battle is a good time to share that

[00:34:15] Gabby Bonnette: [00:34:15] part.

[00:34:16] Ryan Bonnette: [00:34:16] Okay. So what I would say to any young person is what overcoming depression or any or even a sickness or any problem in life always put God first and read the Bible and pray every day and never stop that because there were times during the Depression.

[00:34:31] This is silly but I would be crying my eyes out and thinking about one kill myself and have my Bible open to be read. All the while the devil whispering in my ear. Why are you doing that? Why are you wasting time God’s not hearing your prayer and I was not paying attention you reading his word.

[00:34:45] What’s the point of it all but I didn’t I refuse to stop because I had a resolve that by bringing prayer is important its key no matter what you doing through and I kept that all the way through and then just waited patiently forgot to take it away. [00:35:00] And on the day of my Deliverance it came in one day and I never had it again since.

[00:35:07] Um I had that day I was in college I was is my first year of college and I have three classes in the morning eight nine and ten o’clock went home to rest of the day to study home alone. That’s a bad place to be when you’re depressed and suicidal and I’ll send down the basement room by myself stuck trying to study for school read my Bible either.

[00:35:26] Whichever. And it was just very prevalent on my mind about Google go kill yourself. Go kill yourself jump off the balcony and saw if I got sick and tired of being sick and tired it right up two flights of stairs up to the top room where my bedroom was the top level threw myself on the floor and cried and prayed if I had many times to God before about it and said Lord, I can’t stand anymore.

[00:35:48] Please take it away and then a voice spoke and said you speak. And when he said that to me, I directed my prayer then to the devil and said Satan. 

[00:35:59] Gabby Bonnette: [00:35:59] Leave

[00:36:01] [00:36:00] Ryan Bonnette: [00:36:01] this exactly like that and the same as I’d heard the voice before not Audible Voice. None of these are audible their internal but I heard within me a voice of many demons.

[00:36:10] It sounded like not one, but many screaming is there a cast down? And I jumped up from there felt this enormous burden lifted from me and ran outside. I didn’t know how to expend all this energy because all of a sudden went from an oppressive Spirit not want to do anything to all of a sudden feeling so energetic and I had to carry it out some way run around shouting didn’t seem like it would justify it.

[00:36:32] So I thought well, I’ll go do something productive for the first time in a long time. We had lots of chunks of firewood to boss would burn fire with it at our house there and there was a tool that in the South would call the go-devil. I don’t know if you’ve heard of that term might just based upon it thing.

[00:36:46] I don’t know but it’s called a go-devil. It’s like an axe, but with a really fat head and use it to bust chunks of wood for firewood. We had big piles of chunks of these would already cut off of a tree trunk and ready to bust into firewood. I just started [00:37:00] swinging that go-devil for the all afternoon.

[00:37:02] I busted piles of firewood and then my dad came home from work about 5:00 that evening he back down the driveway roll down the window looks over at me and he said Son. I don’t know what’s gotten into you and I’m glad it did because I had busted all our firewood for the winter and just felt so much energy never had a problem depression since then.

[00:37:23] Luis Urrego: [00:37:23] That’s that’s incredible. God still in the healing business where you said you were taking medication and things like that the last time she was okay.

[00:37:35] Ryan Bonnette: [00:37:35] No, I never have

[00:37:36] Luis Urrego: [00:37:36] so you didn’t take just asshole psychiatrist for a while. You did say, okay. All right, because his brother Ryan pointed out that it is it is a spirit.

[00:37:47] It is a it is a it is a demonic Force. More than more than anything and being that you see it more nowadays more [00:38:00] than ever. The Bible does say that in the last days, you know, there would be thousands and thousands of demons released especially I’ll ponder upon the broad so that’s very interesting because at one point that at one point you had it and then next thing, you know, you hadn’t battle it since then.

[00:38:19] My will praise the Lord for his Deliverance

[00:38:22] Ryan Bonnette: [00:38:22] on the last thing I want to say about depression was that from the time the Lord delivered me from that depression all up until I met my wife Gabby there was probably a good year, maybe two years of time that elapsed and I was no longer struggling with depression.

[00:38:37] I came to the realization that relationships are not to be the answer to our get over depression and things it’s solely in Christ and. Um, so being me being a single brother during that time. I came to the resolve and resolution that will Paul said I find whatever state I’m in there in to be content for that stage.

[00:38:56] My life. God wanted me to be a single man in the message single [00:39:00] young man. And so I was happy just carrying my Bible reading the word of God and fellowshipping with everybody and not having a girlfriend and then I met my wife and so that’s that’s wonderful thing about the Lord taking that away.

[00:39:12] Luis Urrego: [00:39:12] Do you feel that maybe the Lord the debt kind of proves what God Said and in what Jesus said in the word seek?

[00:39:19] Ye first the kingdom of God, actually.

[00:39:22] Ryan Bonnette: [00:39:22] Yes

[00:39:22] Luis Urrego: [00:39:22] and his righteousness and and all these things would be added on to you. So that doesn’t necessarily apply to just older people because I can apply to the younger. Oh, yeah better as well how brother Ron just Express how important it is that you fall in love with Christ first.

[00:39:45] And and if you if you put your mind that I’m going to serve the Lord. I’m going to concentrate on becoming more like Christ then. God has exactly what he had a [00:40:00] way where he what you need because he said he was going to provide for your needs and of course, you know, there are wants that he will provide as well.

[00:40:08] But as long as it doesn’t hurt you spiritually so that’s very that’s very interesting. That’s brother. Ron is a proof that. If you totally no matter you were how old that’s this time of the wrong. I was about 20. So you’re about 20 and when you just give things over to God after the relationship that he had that didn’t work out but F when you give things over to God.

[00:40:36] God will just take care of the rest and then there’s

[00:40:39] Ryan Bonnette: [00:40:39] one brother in there that during that time that was very Gary Atkins. That was a mentor to me real help to me. I did from time to time. I’ve called him he encouraged me because he knew I was going through depression. He was one of the only ones that knew and he told her Ryan and regard to that form a relationship.

[00:40:54] He said no matter how bad you think he wants something. If God don’t want you to have it. [00:41:00] You don’t want it. And he was right and that’s when I had to begin to surrender my world instead of praying God let that relationship come back. I started praying Lord if it be thy will if not, then take away my desire for her because you’ve got other things out there for me and he didn’t have a wife out there for me.

[00:41:15] That’s perfect for me exactly in every way even believable

[00:41:20] Luis Urrego: [00:41:20] ya know in the fact that you both have had even struggle with almost the same issues, you know. Um, I guess that was a piece for you both to have that that understanding and that area, you know to help one another. Oh God, how do you feel sister Gabby since you’ve since you’ve been married at what when you were when you were young, did you have a desire for a husband?

[00:41:46] Was that something that was in your mind or. 

[00:41:51] Gabby Bonnette: [00:41:51] I know if I ever did want a husband I didn’t want it like the man that was it. My past hmm, but I kind of figured that I’d [00:42:00] probably wind up with somebody like that.

[00:42:02] Luis Urrego: [00:42:02] Oh, wow. Yeah, that’s all you’ve known. Yeah,

[00:42:05] Gabby Bonnette: [00:42:05] and I was really worried about that. But then once I became more mature after I got family, I really didn’t think of settling down II I didn’t even know what I was going to do with my future.

[00:42:23] Let me know. Caught up in the moment. But when I meant Ryan there was a lot going on then one thing. He didn’t mention was on my side of the whole scenario part of the reason why I was off to myself was because I was praying about a situation. Hmm. I was had just turned 18 and my. Biological dad was causing some trouble and social workers and all my family were saying you may have to call and talk to him on the phone telling you back off if you want him to back [00:43:00] off.

[00:43:01] I was facing having to confront him and I didn’t want to wow. Yeah, I was I was to the point where I forgave them for everything, but I didn’t want to invite that back into my life. Hmm. And so I was praying about that situation and stuff like that and then we met and then right after we had met and we have parted ways and stuff on my way back home.

[00:43:28] I got the news. I didn’t have to call and make that phone call the

[00:43:34] Luis Urrego: [00:43:34] Ron came and Save

[00:43:35] Gabby Bonnette: [00:43:35] the

[00:43:37] Luis Urrego: [00:43:37] Day. Wow, yeah,

[00:43:39] Gabby Bonnette: [00:43:39] making Ryan was like a bonus to the whole situation. God put me off to myself so he could come and talk to me.

[00:43:46] Luis Urrego: [00:43:46] Yeah, praise the Lord. How old were you when you met him.

[00:43:50] Gabby Bonnette: [00:43:50] I had just turned 18

[00:43:52] Luis Urrego: [00:43:52] the day before the

[00:43:53] Ryan Bonnette: [00:43:53] bathroom birthday

[00:43:54] Luis Urrego: [00:43:54] and you were 20.

[00:43:55] I

[00:43:56] Ryan Bonnette: [00:43:56] was 21 or four years apart. I turned that. It was [00:44:00] October this month is the month both happy birthday. So at that time she just turned 18. I was fixed turned 22.

[00:44:06] Luis Urrego: [00:44:06] Okay, and you both got married at what age

[00:44:09] Gabby Bonnette: [00:44:09] your later

[00:44:10] Ryan Bonnette: [00:44:10] 19 and 23.

[00:44:11] Luis Urrego: [00:44:11] Yeah. Okay. Alright, how was the recording process? I mean, how did that

[00:44:16] Ryan Bonnette: [00:44:16] well by that time I had already set my mind on never dating again, and I was bound and determined.

[00:44:22] I was just as resolved not to date again as I wasn’t reading my Bible every day right? I wasn’t going to and we didn’t ever. They are all we did is just basically through phone calls old-fashioned letters and emails got to know each other.

[00:44:36] Gabby Bonnette: [00:44:36] It was letters and then email or kind of both at the same time.

[00:44:41] But then when he asked to start talking on the phone, I was like.

[00:44:45] Luis Urrego: [00:44:45] All right there you have part one of our interview with brother Ryan and sister Gabby Barnett. I hope that you’ve thoroughly enjoyed what you’ve heard so far and please be on the lookout for part two as we will be releasing it within the next few days so that you [00:45:00] can get the rest of the interview and the valuable information that we gathered at sister, right?

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[00:46:00] [00:45:59] So thank you once again for tuning in. We hope that you share the podcast and share the website the videos with everybody and if you’ve been blessed. Share them with. That they might be blessed as well. So until next time may God richly bless you. And once again remember that your soul your soul is worth ten thousand worlds your souls worth more than you think.

[00:46:27] So always remember that no matter. Those are the only two things that’s going to matter out of this life out of anybody’s life. It’s what we do for others, especially what we do for Christ. Those are the only two things that we’re going to get out of take from this life. So may God richly bless you and until next time.

[00:46:50] Gabby Bonnette: [00:46:50] Take care. God bless. [00:47:00]

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